2026/05/31
While I'd really like to break down the concept of 'Procrastination', I really have no wish to go back to the times I studied bits of psychology; those were very miserable times.
But I do realize that with time I've been more accepting of such concept as a part of myself. Not really in the sense of self-deprecation, but rather an observable phenomenon.
I've stopped feeling bad about it when I understood that it really is just a cooldown if treated as such.
As the unpublished writer that I am, I'm pretty experienced with that uncomfortable phase where thoughts come and go, feeding a fantasy that's not being shaped due to my lack of willingness to write, or draw, or do anything with it. Smoke grenades that I can only appreciate for a moment, hoping to retain it for the next time I decide to do something useful.
Inspiration is the engine of the fool, but it's undeniable that it's another tool like many others. It's in those rare moments where I don't feel like doing anything, when thoughts come to make me daydream, when taking notes is what separates 'wasting-time' procrastination than 'cooldown' procrastination.
In a way, this entry is itself something I'm doing while I procrastinate on two other projects I should be working on. Only deciding to make this when I've felt that I've spent enough time doing nothing and that now I have to do a lot to compensate.
Maybe that's an exaggeration, but it's true that I have my phase when I feel I gotta make up for lost time and try to be as efficient as possible to produce a lot before getting into cooldown again.
I have 2 projects active and 7 on the backlog...
Such is life.